Love-Sick

It’s been a long time now
since you broke my heart
I don’t know
why did you do that
Still have those unanswered questions
I try to be strong
But somehow I still can’t
get you off my mind
Never ever thought that
I’ll see this day without you
Only if you knew how I felt
Hearing your name
Left a spark on my face
Now, there’s pain to accompany it
Don’t know
Why did you have to pretend
Tell me
Should I be sad that you are not with me?
or
Be happy that you were once mine?
why did you have to go away?

I hope now you’re happy
very happy without me
I hope that you get everything you want in life
But most of all
I really hope that you’ll miss me one day
As much as I do now.

© Aditi

P.S - This poem was written by me just for time-pass. Random thoughts, you see. Nothing’s related to me.
(Considering all the comments this post/poem is getting, I was forced to add this note to avoid confusion)

Doomsday – Who cares?

All that you hear these days, somewhere or the other is, “The world is going to end on 21st December 2012″. Is it, really? Do you believe that? I don’t really believe that the world’s gonna end in 2012.

Question (Q): Are there any threats to the Earth in 2012? Many Internet websites say the world will end in December 2012.
Answer (A): Nothing bad will happen to the Earth in 2012. Our planet has been getting along just fine for more than 4 billion years, and credible scientists worldwide know of no threat associated with 2012.
Source: http://www.nasa.gov/topics/earth/features/2012.html *Got this link from Ashwin.*

And after reading all this, I certainly don’t want to believe about the world’s end or any such thing.

Well, I was tagged by Anubha to make a to-do list of things I’d want to achieve before I leave this world. So here comes the list-

#1- I would wanna do a professional course in Interior Designing. Just like a backup career, that is.
#2- Buy a car and a house for my parents.
#3- Learn some form of western dance. Hmm, Salsa!
#4- Learn a foreign language, probably Spanish.
#5- Tour the whole of India
#6- Travel a Lot abroad. If not a LOT, at least wanna visit the States once in my life. Be it for a vacation or for studies. The focus is more on studies here.
#7- Learn to play Guitar and Violin.
#8- Live by myself once in my life but only for some period of time.
#9- I really wanna slap someone. Actually not SOMEONE. I know exactly who (But, obviously not gonna tell you) Hehe *So, PLEASE don’t ask me who? *
#10- I’ve 1-2 things more to be included here. But I think this is just not the right time to reveal them now and obviously not here.

P.S – I tag Sanjana, Chetan and Jaya to make a to-do list and post it!

#DecemberWish-es

For those who use Twitter regularly, it isn’t very difficult to guess where did I get this idea (writing a post on this topic) from. And for those who don’t. The other day I saw this topic i.e #DecemberWish as one of the trending topics on Twitter. Trending topics in short = most talked about topics. So I thought why not make a list of things that I wish to do in December. I knew it won’t be fun like making a shopping list. Nevertheless, if I make a list, maybe I would take things seriously and finish them when I’m supposed to. Atleast I can try to do so.
P.S – To make it look attractive, I’ve accompanied the list with suitable pictures. Just for FUN!

So here comes a list of Top 10 things to be done /completed /followed in December by me!

#1- Study HARD

#2- Less Tweeting, Facebooking and Orkutting.

#3- Stay away from Frustration

#4- Ignore things/people which/who are not important & not worth wasting my time on.

#5- Blog MORE

#6- No shopping. This is gonna be really DIFFICULT. *keeping my fingers crossed*

#7- Not getting affected /hurt by anything /anyone

#8- Apply for a Driving License

#9- Hmmmm Hmmm. I finished doing the 9th thing yesterday, so not mentioning it here.

#10- Last but not the LEAST, Keep SMILING Always!

P.S – Let’s see how much I succeed in this.

Is Suicide the Solution?

Few days back, I got a news that one of my professor committed suicide. I was totally shocked to hear that. He was a gem of a person, the happy-go-lucky types. Since then, hundreds of question are not seeming to stop popping up in my mind. After all, when someone we know /knew takes such a step, totally shocks us. It’s not so easy to gulp the fact and accept the truth that s/he’s no more.
I always wondered that what it is that drives people to commit suicide. Whenever I hear /read about someone committing suicide, the first question that pops up in my mind is what kind of problems do those people have that they are forced to take such a drastic step. Is it the problem that is a problem or is their ability to handle problem? Confused? I mean it’s not at all easy to commit suicide. Where do they get so much courage from? The courage to just lie down on a railway track? So much willpower to just jump off a tall building or even the easiest option like its said, eat poison or some sleeping pills. The easiest option too, does not seem any easier to me, forget about the rest of them. (that does not mean I’m planning to commit suicide, just saying). It’s definitely not everybody’s cup of tea.

Anyway, the point of this post is for those people who really hate their lives or everyone /everything around them and eventually end up committing suicide. Are these people really mentally or emotionally weak? Because had it been so, where would they have so much courage and willpower to take any of the above mentioned step. The point I’m trying to make clear is that when they have so much courage and willpower, why not use it in a positive way. I know it’s easier said then done, but it’s definitely worth it. Sometimes people want to go back to their past and start things all over again. I don’t understand what’s the point in saying this when every sane human being knows that this is not going to happen. Mistakes happen. If you make a mistake and you wish to go back and change it, you’re mistaken again. Because what’s the guarantee that you would not make the same mistake again. It’s simple– You can’t change what you’ve done. So instead of dreaming to go back in the past and change things, Why not turn the clock around and start a new life and try to improve yourself.

The prime factors responsible for people being suicidal are depression, loneliness, etc. The reasons that a person becomes depressed are loss of control over his/her life and emotions, loss of hope about a positive future.



Teenagers commit suicide for stupid reasons like failing in examination or even the worst, when their boyfriend /girlfriend ditches them. I don’t understand, is any examination important than your life? Is the person whom you know only since a few months or probably years, more important than your family?
“Problems, are to be solved. They are a part of our lives. All that matters about life is getting ready for the next one.” Only worrying about what you’ve never had or what you’re going to have is useless. Life sucks; everyone knows that, but you’ve got to have faith in what you’re doing. If you can’t handle the truth now, you never can because things only get harder, not easier. Drugs, alcohol, and sleeping pills can always cheat your current situation for a while. They’d take you to your imaginary world where there’d be no place for frustration, pain, worries like that of the real world. But finally you hit reality and you’ve to live with it. SO. just be happy with what you have and care about the people who are around you. Don’t wait for others to make you feel better or give you what you want. Do it yourself. The answers lie in our day-to-day efforts to help ourselves.
Suicide is not a solution, it is only an end before a solution can be found. It’s just a permanent solution of a temporary problem. It can neither be considered as an option, for an option means we have a choice but death deprives us of both, option and choice. Death is an irreversible act that does not end the pain, for it remains in those who are left behind.

Life is meaningful only when it’s painful and you still survive through it. If you were born to be a person with everything you wanted and without pain, you would be nothing at all. So, don’t lose hope. Don’t ever give up!
    

Art Attack – The Wall Project #Mumbai

 
Aaaahh, feels so good to write a post after so many days!
I wanted to write about The Wall Project since Sunday, but something or the other kept me away from writing. Two days back I sat down to write about it but could not write a single line. I could hear my inner voice saying “Abhi nahi, baad mein (Not now, later)”. After 4 days of procrastination, I’m finally writing this post. Ohh that makes me realize that I’m turning into a lazy bum. Anyways should we get back to the topic?

Okay, the second phase of The Wall Project took place on Sunday (25th October, 2009), the first one being on 15th August 2009, which we missed. By we I mean, Me and Anubha. So the next day itself she told me that we’re gonna attend the second one for sure and I readily agreed because I love Painting! As we didn’t wish to miss the second phase as well, we’d started planning about it almost a week before Sunday.

The Gang @TheWallProject

    1 day before the event.
    Me: Hiee. you coming tomm for the wall project?:
    @skyn3t (Neeraj): yes, I’m coming.
    Me: Ohh kool. Even I’m coming tomm and this time – for SURE. =)

The uppercase effect for the word ‘SURE’ was because Neeraj thought I was a ‘taangu’ (one who ditches at the last moment) and I wanted to assure him that this time I’m not going to ditch them – for SURE . I didn’t, rather couldn’t attend the BarCamp of which he was one of the organizers and so he wanted me to attend it. And the second reason being I didn’t accompany them (Anubha, Neeraj and a few other tweeters) for the film ‘Blue’. Now ‘Blue’ was a movie, I wouldn’t have watched even if someone gave me free tickets. By saying so, I literally mean it. Neeraj had free tickets and still I didn’t go with them. These were the reasons that Neeraj had an image of me being a ‘taangu’.

So, the three of us decided that we’d reach there by 8:00am, so that we get the best wall and also some free paints which were limited. Anubha SMS’d me before sleeping that she would wake up by 7:30am and give me a call the moment she wakes up. I was sure that she wasn’t going to wake up before 8:00am. I set my alarm to 7:45 am and went to sleep. I checked my cellphone after the alarm went off in the morning. No calls from Anubha. But wasn’t this expected? hehe There was no use calling her, because even if a person dies calling her up, she would not receive calls when she’s asleep. (Please, don’t kill me for this Anubha ) So, even I went to sleep. *Bhurrrrrrrrrrrrrr Bhurrrrrrrrrrrr* My pillow started vibrating and I knew it was Anubha. I checked the time. It was 9:30 am.

The conversation-
Anubha: Hello!
Me: Ha bol na.
Anubha: Abhi uthi main just. Tu?
Me: Uthi thi subah, par vapas so gai.
Anubha: Okie
Me: Kitne baje jaana hai?
Anubha: Tu bol.
Me: Meko kabhi bhi chalega.
Anubha: Thik hai, 11-11:30 tak nikalte hai.
Me: Hmm, okie.
Anubha: Tujhe sona hai kya aur?
Me: Ha, I’m sleeping again for sometime. *shameless me *
Anubha: Thik hai, main bhi soti hoon 10 baje tak! *hehe, copycat *
Me: Thik hai.
Anubha: Uthke vapas phone karti hoon.
Me: Okies. Bye.
Anubha: Bye.

I set my alarm to 10:00 am and went to sleep again.

*Bhurrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr Bhurrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr* It was Anubha again. We decided that we shall get ready now and leave by 11:30am.
I reached Mahim at around 1:30 pm. Anubha and Alisha had already reached there. By the time I reached there, they had bought some colors, mugs, brushes and a roller. We were so excited by looking at other paintings that we wanted to start painting as soon as possible. We got geared up and started painting. Alisha decided to paint alone on a wall, whereas I and Anubha did it together. By the time we were painting the Canvas (wall background), Alisha finished her painting. She drew the unicorn.

Alisha's Painting!

Neeraj joined us a little later and helped us in painting the canvas of the uneven, dirty wall. I think it was 4:00PM and we were still painting the canvas. Alisha too, helped us in doing that. People around us had finished their paintings and were already leaving, whereas some people had just come and started with the painting work. By the time we finished painting the wall background (canvas), we were totally exhausted. All of us were hungry like anything. But somehow we started painting the ‘Bandra-Worli Sea-Link’. After completing, it turned out be nothing like I’d thought/Imagined. Ashwin described it the BEST. He said, “Do you call those white lines as the ‘Bandra-Worli Sea-Link’?” LOL We thought that the boat and the moon were way better than the sea-link

Our painting!

    We even wrote our twitter handles on the wall.

Twitter-Addicts, you see!

We clicked a lot of photos giving weird and funny poses!

Moon ko bhi nahi choda

Mission - Paint Anubha!

The Artists!

    Some of the paintings near Mahim station -

Samjhe kuch?

Alienated Peace!

Cute. Ain't it?

Loved this!

The venue!

Unity In Diversity - Lovelyyyy!!!

Hehe

The Best of All! Simply Awesome.

All in all, it was an awesome experience. It felt great to see so many different types of people, all coming up together at one place and painting, be it the street kids or the professional artists. At the end of the day we could feel a sense of proud that we did our bit in beautifying our very own city – ‘MUMBAI’. The happiness we could feel was just indescribable.
It’s truly said that – “The best things in life are free”.
It was truly a well-spent Sunday!